To be honest, I am a little sad today. No, to be honest I am very, very, sad today.
It's supposed to be my older brother's 25th birthday, but he's not here to celebrate it with us. Instead, he's in heaven, like he has been since 2008. And we are here on earth, feeling sad because we miss him.
It's very hard to deal with the loss of a loved one, especially when it comes unexpectedly. You don't expect someone so close to you to pass away, especially not at the young age of 17. So when that happened, I was heartbroken and very upset. And although I am much older now, I was only 14 at the time, it's still difficult for me when his birthday comes, or August 14, the day he died.
And for years, I've refused to show people how extremely sad I was. How hard it was for me to smile, when I knew he'd never hug me again. Because I wanted to seem strong and comfort others, when I wasn't that strong at all. I was actually pretty weak.
So now I am finally honest. And after 7 and half years, I can finally show my true feelings. I am very sad he has died, and I miss him everyday. But I also know he's in heaven, and that I will see him again someday :) So until I go to heaven too, I know he's looking down on me. And I will strive every day of my life to make my older brother proud of his little sister!
So if you're currently feeling a little lonely, or if you're deeply missing someone, I have something to say to you. Or if you're feeling like your heart is broken in a million pieces because you've recently lost a loved one: I pray your heart may be filled with so much hope and strength to live bigger in their honour!
And I know I usually post about travelling, fashion, or other fun things, so this might seem very unlike me. But I am aware that someone might be reading this who needed this very much, and I want them to know they're not alone. I can relate to them so much, and I really hope their day just got a little brighter by reading this! ♡